I . . . have poured out my
soul before the Lord. —1 Samuel 1:15
Sometimes I feel as if I’m
in a bad relationship—with myself! Whenever Julie the writer starts a
paragraph, Julie the editor interrupts. "No, no, no. Don’t say it that
way. Why are you always so negative?" Or "What makes you think you
have anything worthwhile to say?"
Before I’ve completed a
single thought, my alter ego has torn it to shreds. This is a very debilitating
ritual. It’s also common to the human condition.
Satan loves to distract us
with criticism, and he tries to get us to use it on others as well as
ourselves. We judge prematurely and try to correct others before we know what
they’re saying. That’s what Eli the priest did when Hannah was crying out to
God. He interrupted her prayer and accused her of being drunk (1 Sam. 1:12-14).
But God lets us pour out
our hearts to Him in full honesty (Ps. 62:8). In fact, the Psalms indicate that
it is when we are expressing our doubts and fears that God resolves them. Many
Psalms that begin in despair end in praise (22; 42; 60; 69; 73).
When a battle is raging
inside, pour out your soul before the Lord (1 Sam. 1:15). He can make sense out
of what seems senseless. —Julie
When turmoil seems to hold
And be the ruler of the day,
I’ll open up my heart and find
That God with peace can ease my mind. —Hess
Prayer does not make God
see things as we see them; it helps us see things as God sees them.